As I’m finalizing chapter 17 part 2 for Clash of Tides, I needed to go back and reread old chapters.
Like most writers who reread their first drafts, the cringe-worthy errors got to me. There is so much editing that needs to be done, I just want to crawl in a hole and die. Of course, I know that most, if not all, writers go through the same thing. However, since I put my first drafts online to get feedback, it bothers me a lot. I know, I know, it’s part of the writing process but still, ugh.
Not only did I see all the errors that needed to be fixed, I also started analyzing why it didn’t do so well on Wattpad as I hoped. I made a mental list and narrowed it down to the following:
- The grammar, word usage, and minor spelling errors – I know this can’t be helped, but gah, it still sucks.
- Having a black protagonist – I don’t think a lot of readers on Wattpad are interested in reading about a black female protagonist. Then again, I don’t know for sure.
- Mature scenes – While Clash of Tides isn’t all sex, it does have some mature scenes and I know that can turn readers off. Another one of my books, 9/Nine Realms, will have torture scenes, graphic, but not like GOT graphic.
- Repetitive dialogue and thoughts – yeahhhh, I know my writing suffered from this. I do plan to edit Elena’s internal thoughts for the second draft.
- The belief that stories about merman are bad – Yes, I’ve heard that books with merman have a bad reputation. I wish they would give my book a chance, though. It’s not that bad =)
I’ve considered changing some of these things, but I won’t change my protagonist. The fact Elena is a black woman is central to the story. I’m hoping that didn’t affect Clash of Tides readership, but I can only wonder. Lastly, there are the graphic scenes. Many of the scenes further Elena’s character development, so yeah; I can’t really get rid of them. The graphic scenes show what that time period was like for women in Elena’s occupation, so I don’t want to betray my vision.
Yes, the dreaded rewrite is almost coming, so I need to prepare for it. In one of my writing books, a famous author said she rewrote the story as she finished up various chapters. I don’t know how she did it because thinking of the rewrite is already scaring me. I can make the story better, or worse.