Today, as I was on the train, I looked at my phone and read all my messages. These are messages from various writing sites and WordPress.
Overall, the messages said one thing, “Where is Clash of Tides?”
Now, this is my bad for keeping the sample up, but readers have been asking me where the chapters are. Of course, if someone messages me, I open the chapters up to them.
For now, I feel plagued with writer’s guilt. I don’t know if other writers have felt guilt over this, but the guilt is,
“How can I deny readers who actually want to read my stories?”
Yes, yes, many of you are thinking, “Didn’t she just complain she didn’t have readers?”
Well, like with anything, people appreciate something more when it’s gone. I feel like I am at a crossroad. Do I post the chapters back up publicly, or do I keep the story hidden away for my own delight?
To my fellow writers, have you ever taken away a story a reader said they loved and felt bad for it?
Sometimes, I wonder if I am too hard on myself. Maybe I’m setting my bar too high for a writer who is still learning. Maybe when we believe we have failed, we are actually succeeding.
Maybe my eyes are so blind with disappointment,
I can’t see what I am achieving
Passion can guide us,
But it can also hurt us
Perhaps it’s time to take a step back,
To realize all the love and support around us
And also to see once a story has been written,
It’s more than just the author, plot, and characters
It’s about the readers,
The ones who dive in the world, and are taken on an adventure
Gosh, writing is such an emotional journey.