This year, I haven’t been consistent with my updates, and honestly, it bothers me that I let my blog fall so behind.
I’m not sure how many readers I have left on here, but please know this year has been nuts for me. Back in March, unfortunately, my grandfather was diagnosed with cancer. In October, sadly, he passed away, but his suffering ended. Not only did I lose my grandfather, but the guy in my life lost his grandpa, too.
If you follow my blog, then you know that I also went back to school for my technical writing certificate and to learn front-end web development. Right now, I’m also still working on the new writing platform I want to launch next year. And currently, at the end of the year, I have been offered a full-time technical writing position.
Needless to say, this year has been full of changes for me, some good and some bad. On the one hand, the job that I’ve wanted for years is finally in my grasp, but then I’m also suffering from thoughts of self-doubt. I worry that if I take the job, my writing won’t be good enough, but I’m not sure if it’s just my anxiety kicking in.
I’ve never had a full-time writing job, and I admit, I’m a little scared that I won’t be a good writer, but I don’t want these thoughts of doubt to hold me back.
Change doesn’t always lead to bad things, and I have to remember that when I make my final decision.
At the same time, I also grew as a writer. I can successfully read my old work now and think, Gah, this was crap!
For 2019, I know where I’m going.
I’ve been trying to get an agent for a while now, and that’s one of my primary goals for 2019. This time next year, I want to hopefully, have an agent and look for publishers who are interested in my story.
The writing journey, like life, isn’t a straight path, it’s a twisty road, full of turns and corners. It took me years to get here with my technical writing, but it’s one step closer to my dream of writing fiction full time.
Honestly, I can’t say I accomplished all my goals for 2018, but it’s not ending on a sad note. Let’s hope, from here, things continue to push me towards my dream of being a professional, published fiction writer.
To all my readers and the people still following this blog, have a
Beginning the new year, I’ll start posting again, hopefully. With all the changes going on in my life, making time to write is more important than ever, and I want this blog to stay alive.